Having a low moment

this week I’m having a moment to have opinions about videos on Facebook and YouTube , I watch some gender videos, but I do t know why, I just hate gender reveal videos when other siblings cry when they don’t get the choice they wanted, Fuck off....being lucky enough to get a sibling ...be grateful! ....rant over! This week has been an up and down week with emotions in our house running high, a mixture of excitement and nerves for what the nurses will say on Tuesday, I sometimes find it hard to work in a nursery with lots of expected mums and dad’s and not to feel sad that it hasn’t happened yet for me and James, he put up with a lot from me, I am a very heart on sleeve person, and all the time I’m happy for parents at nursery and having supportive colleagues helps, but sometimes you just want to come home and shouts and screams and then cry into a bottle of wine! 

It’s not all bad I promise, We love each other and have amazing friends to support us and the team at Seacroft are so nice, Think I just overthink some stuff, and at the end of the day I just want to be a great mummy and make James happy for ever, ok I’m crying again 

TTFN 

Sarah xx

No more sad stories

Hello again 

I wish to point out early on this is Not a sad story about infertility, James and I am so happy in our life, after starting this I have spoken to friends and colleagues about their babies and their struggles , this issue affects everyone, I think some new parents can be smug when showing off their beautiful babies and unintentionally unkind-no insensitive, they don’t mean it, I get it...it’s wonderful, just don’t rub it in my face! I’m at the anger stage where my body should be able to give life but can’t without help, and it’s fucking frustrating , this week I want to talk about the process and how it is going, We have trying to get pregnant for over 2 years now, and after Christmas 2017 ,We went to the doctors for tests and He referred us to Seacroft under the care of Professor Balen, I have had lots of tests done including countless blood taken- gate blood tests, ok I’m a wuss! James has done his part but it might explain in his guest post, then after a scan they thought I had endometriosis and referred me for surgery and I had the laposcopy at end of July, they removed my RH tube ,after they found evidence that the tube was blocked and evidence of PID(pelvic inflammation disease ) ...so next bit is early September...I’m excited and scared in equal measure. I’m still in hope that we will get a great outcome at the end but I have promised myself to write about it no matter what 

Thanks for reading 

TTFN 

Dolly xx

Post Operation

Blogging on the Go-New thing 

This week I’m writing as to the frustration that surgery is to me, note I have never been a good patient and I have never had an operation before, I understand that other humans are poorly more than me but remember this is my opinion and my IVF journey! Be respectful! I have listened to Lynsey’s podcast , thanks Lynsey -Keuties -family -fund, and since being back from St James’s, who did a great job btw, we are off to Seacroft in 4 weeks, eeek, for the next appointment ! Anyway this is a post about not be able to do things in this last week, I’m a very active girl and enjoys seeing my mates and helping people, I had to cancel a couple of important things, that made me feel very annoyed and couldn’t do things at work too, Think because the pain is invisible to people, sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball but then get so pissed off that I let people down, so I’m very sorry to the people I couldn’t help or didn’t see. 

I have asked James to do a guest post from the man’s perspective, so think he will do that soon, so it keeps it light as I’m all do and gloom, 👍😂!! 

I’m really lucky that I have supportive colleagues and family especially my grandma Remo whom offered to do my injections! (She should have been a nurse) 

So look out for A guest post from James soon! 

Thank you for reading  my ramblings ! 

TTFN

Dolly xxx

Surgery day and beyond

Hello from the Doll house, I’m starting to love this blogging, might make it a weekly thing! This week in the Doll household, I have had surgery on my Lady bits, to establish why I can’t have babies, they suspected Endometriosis or PID so removed my Right Fallopian tube and then We can start IVF soon, anyone out there is the same boat, Big Hugs, one of the babes that I follow on Instagram has set up a crowdfund to help other ladies in this situation, We are lucky that ours is on the NHS due to my old age and the length of time trying, anyway I’m almost recovered ,  it hurts to laugh ...which is awkward as James is hilarious....fecking husbands, he had cleaned house and fetched and carried for me....thank you Harry!! I will keep up the post on this to raise awareness so it’s super hard not to be able to do something that is in built into being female, that may piss off people whom choose not to have children...but this is my blog and my opinion after all, we are being positive and if It doesn’t work we are going to look into other avenues, Harry is going to make an awesome dad, He is a cool Uncle to our best friends Children and to my own nephews O and H! 

Anyway here is LYNSEY links 

Go fund me.com/keuxties-family-fund 

TTFN 

Dolly xx