Stims til January

Hi Blog readers, 

Boxing Day and ready for the next stage, and We have been brave and done the next injections with mixing the powders and taking it, straight away making me feel nauseous, so off to lie down and watch my latest drama/comedy, I’m so emotional and not doing so well on the drugs, but they are taken at evening time so I have still seen my friends and family over the Christmas Holidays, my mum was brave and did one of them , go mum! My family is starting to come on board and understand what this means to me and James, We have moved on a few days now and am taking the 9pm drug in my stride as It makes me feel so 🤢! But James is being kind and making me laugh a lot, and Booked my and mum Strictly Tickets and bought me spin up subscription, and I saw my old friends and their children and husbands, and a couple of surprise visitors, which made me very happy! We have spent some time with new friends and lovely aunties and played silly games , which has made us try and relax , I have bought some beautiful cards to help me too, I’m off to find some comedy and lie down

TTFN 

Sarah 

Starting now ....

Hi Dolly fans , 

Thanks  for reading the blog I have been to the hospital yesterday to start my injections this will continue until the new year and then I will have another scan and then fingers crossed it will go according to plan the injections are not nice they are horrible. James is  being super kind and helping me with them and we did the first one yesterday I have been trying to update a few of my friends and have been saying I will be updating the blog so here it is. The nursing staff at Seacroft a really really nice and chatted to me about what’s the injections are about and also did I like testing thing you know where the show me what to do I came home and then we decided we were going to put them to the injection about 630 so now so now we do that every day until Boxing Day and then we do double injections from boxing day Til 3 Jan, so intense that this time of year but never mind it will have a good outcome I hope! Decided to come off the support groups because I just felt that they were not a supportive of me this is why I have started my blog because I want to people to understand what it is like to go to IVF. This is quite lonely process with you and your partner because people who just conceive naturally don’t really understand, they try but don’t always, it is a really tricky subject and I try to explain that I have a lot of scans and lots of invasive procedures and people don’t really get it so I’m trying to help people by writing this blog! Anyway 1St Injection over and I was brave, ok I cried like a baby! 

Speak soon 

S xx

Bit more further forward

So here I am again, thank you for reading this guys , It means a lot, I haven’t posted a lot as I hadn’t got anything to say yet, as We had a slight delay in starting treatment, as we were waiting for my period, and this has arrived almost 4 weeks late, so added drama of thinking there was a small chance of being pregnant, but We been brave and done our first injection, my husband James was very skilled and it didn’t even hurt although I did numb with a trusted pack of frozen peas! And now we have 4 weeks of down regulation until another scan, hopefully  there won’t have too many side effects, and we will be just looking forward to Christmas, and the next year and all the excitement!  Today I visited Le Keux salon where there were attempted a Victory Roll Race and a Vintage Fun Day which was to help fund a couple for IVF so a cause I believe in.  Thank you for reading and for the comments I get from my friends and Facebook peeps😘😍🤜🏻👩🏻👶

More scans and a start date

Hello all, 

Sorry there has been a delay in posting, I had an exam and life just got in the way, so last time I was going for a scan, well I went for an another and the cyst they were looking at, has gone down and they (the clinic) after a bit of debate -another story but although I’m doing this blog I think it is a bit too personal , I am to have some medication and then at the end Of October I can start my Prostap, I have a plan in my head to do the injections and asked my friend to help me, and James of course with meditation and relaxing music!!! Might try Reflexology too! 

We attended a open evening at the clinic to have a talk about risks and side effects and actually process and saw that there are a lot of couples and single people going for IVF, I have spoken to the nurse about my blog and our journey and Have joined an support group, so positives all round and hopefully we will have a great result, but all quiet here until 30/31 October , eek exciting! 

TTFN

Dolly xx

(Backup) Building up to it!

This week as A wanton distraction We has a comedy night out to see The Horne Section, and we laughed ourselves silly and there were potatoes involved....yeah weird! We have been spending a lot of time talking about the needles and not pushing pressure on each other and I have been trying not to cry -I do that a lot! We have been spending time with our friends having a good time at a couple of parties, We are off to Seacroft today for a -pre-stimulation scan to hopefully start the injections and that is what we have been building up to, I hate needles, And James is going to super brave and do them for me. 

We are also going to a new patient evening to learn all about the procedure and join a Fertility group, see all fingers crossed and I will update you soon 

TTFN 

Dolly x

Scan Time

Today was a weird day , off to Seacroft again for a scan to check the follicles and see the lovely nurse, I was so excited and also so nervous to learn how to do the injections, my lovely dad went with me in the car and I felt a bit odd going through all those corridors, and feel unsure and trying to how empathy for all the other couples going through the same ordeal/journey as we are. The sonographer was lovely too, and said they seen a big cyst and that they want to monitor this, but that shouldn’t delay the treatment, so a couple of quiet weeks and back again early October, which is close too, eek! We have been invited to a new patients night to meet other couples and talk about all the details, hopefully that James won’t be too squeamish. After the appointment I seemed to be down as though it didn’t go well, I think that emotions are high, I was shown how to do the injection so it seems to be progressing in the right direction

I have had lots of messages , so many kind chats in person and on Facebook, Thank you everyone, It means a lot to us! 

TTFN 

Dolly xx

All the emotions

This week, I have thinking a lot about starting the treatment, and so my emotions are all over the place, I have been speaking to my best friends for support and James has been giving me extra cuddles, and lots of support, it is really nervwreaking to go through this, and not everyone understands, but with the blog people’s opinions and ideas should open up more, As I have have said before it is so frustrating and upsetting not to able to do something fundamentally as a woman. Lots of women struggle and don’t want to talk about it, but I hope this blog will help people to talk about it, so I have laughed and cried a lot this week, nd I am trying to come to terms with the planning and the taking of the injections to come, I’m more nervous to put them in the wrong place and do the wrong dose or something stupid, I think I would like people to speak to me about it but try and be patient and show empathy at the sane time, but I also don’t want my friends or colleagues or parents at nursery not to tell me their special news when it happens, I’m not totally pathetic and can be strong when one of them has a new pregnancy announcement, and be stupidly happy for them! I love babies and that why I do the job I do! Anyhoo, all the emotions, so be kind to each other as you don’t know who is struggling to conceive. But we all don’t don’t need to hide it either, let’s break down those barriers Peeps! 

Peace out 

Doll xx

Tuesday Visit and the Journey begins

Firstly I would like to say that I love that some of my nearest and dearest are reading this blog, I know that the punctuation sucks, but I just type how I think and speak, so if you know me in real life it will make sense, today we went back to clinic for our nurse consult and to finish filling the forms...there are a lot of them, it’s a big and expensive procedure and they obviously have to give the treatment to the correct people , I asked several silly questions -well not to me and had a blood test ...did I mention I hate needles, my arm is still hurting as I type...I’m such a fucking wuss! They are all so nice at Seacroft and we are well on our journey. I’m off back in the next couple of weeks then the dreaded injections....hope James is gentle , Big thanks to Rachel for listening to me and for my messages of support, would love to her other people IVF stories....

TTFN 

Dolly x

Having a low moment

this week I’m having a moment to have opinions about videos on Facebook and YouTube , I watch some gender videos, but I do t know why, I just hate gender reveal videos when other siblings cry when they don’t get the choice they wanted, Fuck off....being lucky enough to get a sibling ...be grateful! ....rant over! This week has been an up and down week with emotions in our house running high, a mixture of excitement and nerves for what the nurses will say on Tuesday, I sometimes find it hard to work in a nursery with lots of expected mums and dad’s and not to feel sad that it hasn’t happened yet for me and James, he put up with a lot from me, I am a very heart on sleeve person, and all the time I’m happy for parents at nursery and having supportive colleagues helps, but sometimes you just want to come home and shouts and screams and then cry into a bottle of wine! 

It’s not all bad I promise, We love each other and have amazing friends to support us and the team at Seacroft are so nice, Think I just overthink some stuff, and at the end of the day I just want to be a great mummy and make James happy for ever, ok I’m crying again 

TTFN 

Sarah xx

No more sad stories

Hello again 

I wish to point out early on this is Not a sad story about infertility, James and I am so happy in our life, after starting this I have spoken to friends and colleagues about their babies and their struggles , this issue affects everyone, I think some new parents can be smug when showing off their beautiful babies and unintentionally unkind-no insensitive, they don’t mean it, I get it...it’s wonderful, just don’t rub it in my face! I’m at the anger stage where my body should be able to give life but can’t without help, and it’s fucking frustrating , this week I want to talk about the process and how it is going, We have trying to get pregnant for over 2 years now, and after Christmas 2017 ,We went to the doctors for tests and He referred us to Seacroft under the care of Professor Balen, I have had lots of tests done including countless blood taken- gate blood tests, ok I’m a wuss! James has done his part but it might explain in his guest post, then after a scan they thought I had endometriosis and referred me for surgery and I had the laposcopy at end of July, they removed my RH tube ,after they found evidence that the tube was blocked and evidence of PID(pelvic inflammation disease ) ...so next bit is early September...I’m excited and scared in equal measure. I’m still in hope that we will get a great outcome at the end but I have promised myself to write about it no matter what 

Thanks for reading 

TTFN 

Dolly xx

Post Operation

Blogging on the Go-New thing 

This week I’m writing as to the frustration that surgery is to me, note I have never been a good patient and I have never had an operation before, I understand that other humans are poorly more than me but remember this is my opinion and my IVF journey! Be respectful! I have listened to Lynsey’s podcast , thanks Lynsey -Keuties -family -fund, and since being back from St James’s, who did a great job btw, we are off to Seacroft in 4 weeks, eeek, for the next appointment ! Anyway this is a post about not be able to do things in this last week, I’m a very active girl and enjoys seeing my mates and helping people, I had to cancel a couple of important things, that made me feel very annoyed and couldn’t do things at work too, Think because the pain is invisible to people, sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball but then get so pissed off that I let people down, so I’m very sorry to the people I couldn’t help or didn’t see. 

I have asked James to do a guest post from the man’s perspective, so think he will do that soon, so it keeps it light as I’m all do and gloom, 👍😂!! 

I’m really lucky that I have supportive colleagues and family especially my grandma Remo whom offered to do my injections! (She should have been a nurse) 

So look out for A guest post from James soon! 

Thank you for reading  my ramblings ! 

TTFN

Dolly xxx

Surgery day and beyond

Hello from the Doll house, I’m starting to love this blogging, might make it a weekly thing! This week in the Doll household, I have had surgery on my Lady bits, to establish why I can’t have babies, they suspected Endometriosis or PID so removed my Right Fallopian tube and then We can start IVF soon, anyone out there is the same boat, Big Hugs, one of the babes that I follow on Instagram has set up a crowdfund to help other ladies in this situation, We are lucky that ours is on the NHS due to my old age and the length of time trying, anyway I’m almost recovered ,  it hurts to laugh ...which is awkward as James is hilarious....fecking husbands, he had cleaned house and fetched and carried for me....thank you Harry!! I will keep up the post on this to raise awareness so it’s super hard not to be able to do something that is in built into being female, that may piss off people whom choose not to have children...but this is my blog and my opinion after all, we are being positive and if It doesn’t work we are going to look into other avenues, Harry is going to make an awesome dad, He is a cool Uncle to our best friends Children and to my own nephews O and H! 

Anyway here is LYNSEY links 

Go fund me.com/keuxties-family-fund 

TTFN 

Dolly xx

Summer

Hello, long time no speak from the Doll house, I have been having lots of fun in the sun here in Leeds, and the big news was that me and Mr Dolly got married!! We had an amazing day and then went to Disney Land Paris for Honeymoon, here we are! Anyway, back to reality or I could bang on about weddings for ever! My lovely cousin and one of my best friends both had baby boys in April, one of them sharing my Dad’s birthday! Also J have tried AerialHoop for the first time...and LOVED it! Hopefully will try it again but I’m not as flexible as I thought! Mr D and his best man have started a running club and I am super proud, but will not be joining, ha....Dolly does not run!

Me and Mum went to see Mamma Mia last weekend and It was amazing, no spoilers though, you must watch it, the soundtrack is awesome too and I have listening to it a lot! This weekend Me and Sarah(my matey) have been to see a storytelling evening at Royal Armouries to learn about Grace O Malley the pirate Queen. it was spellbounding, The storyteller Debs Newbold was so entirely memorising, and I will definitely look out for more of her work, and get a book about Grace herself , I have also been on the Kirstall Art Trail this month and went to pick up all the new resources for new Programme for Girlguiding, so all go! 

That’s all for now 

TTFN 

Dolly xx